lulalalaley~

2011-06-25T04:47:00.002+08:00

fuck la hor.

1) i also know is v. childish

2) i never once thought you suck

3) i never once called you a bitch

4) i still love you k. like really.

5) i bet you didn't know, but i've always had a dream to take neoprints with you & anna.

and fuck,

you wanna keep both,

sure,

but can you make sure he doesn't pick on me anymore?

NO RIGHT?
so are you trying to say like,

"oh, i want you to stay beside me, but my bf is gonna hurt you and i cant do anything about it"?

REALLY NOW.

fuuck la hor.

i cried and,

who cared?

nobody.

not you.

you didn't even know.

cause you were too busy paktor with HIM.

yeah sure,

we're the bad guys cause we've had enough of him.

bet he's happy now.

he has you all to himself now.

everytime i wanna talk to you,

he sure come and drag you away anyway.

what diff does it make now?

you've stopped being our mother as soon as you met him.

2011-06-25T01:13:00.001+08:00

This will be my last post in this blog.

Girls. Some things cannot be chosen.

'If me and _____ drop into river, who would you save 1st?' , this question, is really the lamest question in this world. I swear. Only childish people ask this type of question. No offence.

I hope when your are older you can understand what me n brian are trying to say. Don't ever force people to choose. This is bullshyt.

I didn't choose kilo. I wanted to keep both of you but u all chose to leave.

I am sure same thing goes to Brian. Brian want to keep both.

If ur think i suck, i have nothing to say. Fine i suck. I suck being a mum. I am a bitch. Go ahead and hate me all you want. I have nothing to say. I know i FAILED being a maple mummy. I failed totally.

Thanks girls for all the wonderful times spent together, and thanks annabelle for JeTaime n JeVousHais. You girls have being a great daughter-s to me.

Good bye.
Estelle

#4 . I love you , and will only allow you to deliver the final blow. The deepest scar of em' all.

2011-06-08T04:00:00.000+08:00

HISASHIBURI .
I wonder if I have gotten the spelling correctly? ;D But I'm sure you will be able to pronounce it correctly ;D
Anyway , I just realised today that I'm a lil' too dependent on Brian? Eg , just now when me & someone fighting . Kay , not really fight but is like " tio taiji " lah . Then that guy was like want play ffa or someth , then before that is want fight so like , what I felt at that point of time was " come . who scared who? " and Brian was the first thing that popped out of my mind . Then my aiai say its not okay to depend too much on him & must he love me more than I love him. Not like idk right? But these are what you call " love games " . I sick & tired of playing games with him already. Play games with him till I go around cheating on him & flirting? Like some sluts? Nah , not gonna happen again. Not another chance. Besides , I have hurt him way too much <: so much that I no longer deserve the right to hurt him anymore & I really really want him to hurt me . But I know , he will never hurt me . Seriously , this kind of boyfriend go where find?
Am I lucky or what . Oh and I have my instincts & awesome judgments to thanks (:
But , whats the use if my heart likes to go astray? So I'm like , slapping it everyday , every second . I would love to torture myself whenever the thought of wanting to cheat runs across my mind but yeah . I'm unable to physically abuse myself so too bad. It's all going to be mental abuse . I must tame myself to become obedient already or I really really don't deserve to be loved by good guys like him. Only deserve those useless flings , which I thought was fun. And interesting. God , I want to go back and slap myself ><
Anyway , I realise all of my blog post is all about Brian!?
Like that so annoying , who still want read sia. But , I either go out of my brain will be full of thoughts of him.
I seriously wonder if Brian is exhausted anot. Cause his been running around in my brain for hours already.
Gahh . I LOVE HIM <3
ANYWAY , BEAR WITH ME LAH. TILL I GO OUT ;D
kays ,
This post is written by : Annabelle
I love you Brian.

2011-06-08T02:04:00.000+08:00

Some guys are just silly obsessed over a maple character. Zzzz. I do obsess in the past. But i think this is bullshyt. Maple bf and gf are nothing. Okay. Need to be so emo mah? Wtf. I almost bang the wall just now siah. Zzzzz.

Fine im not gonna let this peanuts affect my mood. Tml is my bigbig day! x3

Lastly, chloe nuer, im here for u alright? Don't be so sad! Cheer up! I LOVE YOU :)

Signing off,

Estelle

2011-06-07T02:18:00.001+08:00

I feel like crying. :( i thought i can be okay. But seems like im deceiving myself.

Estelle

#3 , Brian

2011-06-06T03:44:00.000+08:00

Dear Brian ,
I really love you , so fuck you if you think I don't .
Okay , that's all I wanna say so byes ><
Sincerely ,
Annabelle.

Fuck fuck fuck , this love is driving me insane.

2011-06-06T01:33:00.000+08:00

Fuck my life. Seriously.

I am so tired of this.

I feel like giving up everything. And focus on people who can make me happy.

I want peace.

But seems like it's so difficult to get peace.

Perhaps peace doesn't exist at all? I guess.

fuckfuckfuckfuckfuck i wanna forget everything. And hold on to what i have now.

Estelle

#2 , Fuck love , fuck life.

2011-06-04T20:14:00.001+08:00

A butterfly , will die within minutes without its wings , and I'll die within years without you. I'm obviously , not a masochist or whatever , so without you , I'd either be dead or just , simply a living corpse.
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OH , I'm so bloody frustrated.
Life suck , and my love life isn't gettin' any better.
Oh , fvck my life.

What I did today :
Woke up at around 12-1 pm in the afternoon after sleeping at around 4+ last night . Was busy chatting with Chloe jie . HEHE. She was like " Mei , I'm so tired alr. Gonna KO at 1am. "
then , " Mei , I'm so tired alr , gonna KO at 2am. "
Me : NO . WHY SO EARLY.
She : I KO at 2am alr giving you face.
In the end , We both KO-ed at around 4am. Weird much? HAHA
Okay , then I like rushed to my art place then went to 7-11 with jin ye to buy some awesome tom yam instant noodle which I have been craving for a week already !
Honestly hor , I think me & Brian's relationship is like instant noodle.
I was actually buying instant noodle when I texted Brian , like asking him to break up & stuffs like that , then the instant noodle that i bought was like , SUCK . HORRIBLE .DISGUSTING so I obviously threw it away ~ bleh. Then I bought another tom yam instant noodle cause Jin Ye was like " TOM YAM V. NICE "
Then in the end , I am still in love and cravin' for some tom yam instant noodle even till now. Oh & I'm still in love with brian hehe. Abit like the instant noodle right? & before that my life w/o brian when we broke was horrible , as usual . z
Mummy told me its puppy love , like I'm just infatuated with him or something and I kinda agreed lorh.
There are many times where I'm like no longer in love wit Brian then I hope this time , I will remained in love with Brian , cause who says infatuation can't be turned to true love ;D
I really dw hurt him again , I feel damn bad leh. I keep hurting him ><"
Like his ex , ex girlf. or something. I think I'm the guy in the " cuo de ren 's " mv .
Jie , I know you think that way too.
Then Brian like damn bad , but I really can't expect him to continue treating me like princess right? I like , darn right deserve this. If I'm an outsider and I see this kinda relationship I'd be damn mad at the girl ( myself ) and would prolly be cursing this girl ( myself ) over and over again .
Then Brian like abit hostile also , but that's okay >< WO BU JIE YI .
Then again , who am I to say he damn bad sia when I'm the one at fault . ARGHH.
I'm so selfish lar . !@#$%^&*() Oh and I don't think I'd ever leave Brian again cause my friend told me , " don't say you don't love him if you can't leave him. " ;D & right now , I'm bursting wit love for him ! YAY. And did I mention that , I feel v. grossed out whenever a guy calls me something intimate like " dear , honey , love , baby " etc? LOL. It doesn't apply towards Brian , woo hoo .
WAIT .
I WAS ACTUALLY GONNA TALK ABOUT WHAT I DID TODAY RIGHT. WHY SUDDENLY BECOME BOUT BRIAN Z BUT HOR I TYPED THOSE WIT MY HEART & EFFORT SO SUA , DUNNID ERASE HAHA.
OKAY
Then you know hor , tom yam abit spicy so I bought mineral water larh , then got this v. retarded looking guy , he looks retarded , sound retarded and dress retarded.
He go drink my water sia. And he was like " AIYA . LAO SHI WO HE CUO SHUI LE . " in a damn attention seeking way then " SHI SHUI DE? SHI SHUI DE? " WTF. There only got me , him and my friend right. Then IDK why , but I feel that the atmosphere was kinda embarrassing? And I don't even wanna talk to him z so i was like " wo de , wo de "
WALAU . HE COCKEYE SIA. His mineral water is ice mountain one , mine is the dunno simi brand
LOGO DIFF , BRAND DIFF , SIZE DIFFERENT , COLOUR DIFF EVEN THE BOTTLE CAP COLOUR DIFF HE COCK EYE ISZIT. OR HE WANTED TO SHARE INDIRECT KISS WIT ME . JIDAN LAH.
So , I like obviously gonna throw the water bottle away. Who want share indirect kiss with him sia. z
Jibai dog -'-
Kay , I'm signing off now larh. Some other things happened today but yeah , not worth mentioning ;D Since they are like my daily routine so HAHA.
This post is written by , Annabelle
ILY BRIAN. <3

2011-06-04T01:31:00.001+08:00

SO TIRED D:

Sorry annabelle and chloe daughter :P i zao 1st! Annabelle nuer Enjoy ur time with ur darling! LOL :D

Signing off,
estelle

2011-06-03T11:10:00.002+08:00

Okay i realised that there are 2 codes overlapping each other. I solved the codes already :D

Signing off,
Estelle

2011-06-03T11:03:00.000+08:00

Hi! :}

Ah. I have nothing to post leh :l

Just wanna say, i love annabelle and chloe daughter :P x3

And i realised the codes are quite screwed up LOL. :l

Signing Off,
Estelle (iHeartMisery)

# 1 , We R Who We R

2011-06-03T02:28:00.004+08:00

Love's a crime , but ya know that it's a fuckin' addiction .
Greetings , it's almighty Annabelle here.
Yes , the girl who is attached. You dirty little motherfuckers. Ya starin' at me?
Jesus .
My brother's a fucking son of a bitch. Oh , no I ain't fuckin' insulting my mom.
Oh yes , I'm in a v-ulgar kinda mood .
Oh , ya wanna know why? Oh obviously you do! * snickers * You , dirty lil' motherfuckers.
God , he skipped school. He played truancy. LIKE , HOW THE FUCK DID HE GET SO REBELIOUS? HIS FREAKING TWELVE , FOR GOD'S SAKE. And his like " oh I wanna go to * censored * secondary school cause I am a gangster wannabe " Worst case possible , he didn't return home for one whole day. Yes , seriously. Did he know how worried exactly everyone was , with his phone off and some shit like that. I'm like REALLY REALLY curious in what kind of people his mixin' with. So what if their gangsters , they are obviously not matured enough cause they actually let a MINOR join their freaking group.
Makes sense? OBVIOUSLY YES.
Well , I bet they are just another bunch of gangsters wannabe.
Okay , enough of that shitty brother of mine.
><
Now , time for some rants omg.
BRIAN LIM YI HAO.
IHY LAH. HOW COULD YOU BE SO MEAN TO YOUR GIRLF T.T
STAYING UP FOR ANOTHER HALF AN HOUR WONT HURT
OH FINE , I'M BEING V. UNREASONABLE BUT THAT CAN'T BE HELP MAHHH.
RIGHT!!!? JIE . RIGHT? MOMMA. CANNOT BE HELPED RIGHT . T.T
AND WHY YOUR FRIEND WANT ASK YOU SO EARLY GO SCH SIAH. T.T

AHHHHH. I'M BECOMING A BITCH.
YOU'RE GONNA REGRET EVER HAVING ME AS YOUR GIRLFRIEND LAHH I'LL PESTER AND FOLLOW YOU TO THE END OF TIME. BLEHH. HAPPY CRYING .
MWAHAHAHAHAHA
okay , CHANGE OF SUBJS
EHEHEH , I DIDN'T DO V. WELL FOR MY MID YEAR.
>< and my report book got someth wrong T.T
CA1 whole week I never go school , they say my English 33.3 something , I English where got fail one sia ><
Hais , this time mid-year , v. disappointed in myself. Oh wells , I didn't really work hard this year >< BUT HOR. THIS TIME I WORK HARD I SWEAR I WON'T NEGLECT YOU ONE HOR , DARLINGG.
I don't even have the motivation to study >< this sucks man LOL.
Okay , now time to conclude this post with my love.
To CHLOE jie :
I LOVE YOU KAYS .
DON'T NEEDA FEEL BAD BOUT THE THINGS YOU DID TO ME IN THE PAST
There's a reason why they are called " past " and regardless of what , I will still respect your decision ;D
Like , it can't be helped even if you like donq or whatever but yeah . Donq is like a play boy and stuffs.
And , must learn from me mah , never let your past affect you ^o^
You know how much I love you anot!? KNOW ANOT!?
You dare say dunno , I slap you hor. HAHA
Then...
Last but not least , don't be jealous of me lah . I know my boyfriend v. caring & nice & awesome. And mummy now got bf also , don't worry kays. We tmr help you find.
STUPID HEARTLESS BOYFRIEND OF MINE Z
Okay , now to mummy .
HAI MUMMY ACTUALLY I HAVE NOTHING TO SAY LAH. BUT I LOVE YOU KAYS AND I KNOW YOU'RE JEALOUS BOUT ME & MY BOYF ;D
Anyway , set ah . We two wear friendship shirt cause my heartless boyf no cash cannot couple shirt with me
but got ring i alr v. happy alrdy. ;D I LOVELOVE HIM HAHA.
I'm like a love idiot sia. Anyways , RMB THE WEDDING HOR ;D
We 4 wedding , but I doubt I can wedding cause my boyf hor .
* sighs *
I LOVE YOU BRIAN .
Written by , Annabelle
Oh and , blogging w/o codes sucks.